My First Love

Can't believe its already six years of our relationship. We've had the best of times together. Right from the first day when both of us drenched in the rain and went late to college (aaahhh ... those were the dayz!) to last night when I bid goodnight and winked... nothing changed at all... I'm still so much in love! During intermediate there was a lot of uncertainity and a fear of getting caught. We went out very rarely then... I mean... where else could we go... except for that one n only Narayana Junior College and the bakery beside it! Needless to mention the 2 years of Intermediate in Andhra Pradesh is probably the worst period (read: best period for studies) in the student's life! No wonder we didn't find time for each other!

Then when the results were out I was perplexed.... a bit flustered... didn't know if it was my happy moment or sad one. Happy - because I made it to BITS Pilani - a premier institute n that means parting from all dear ones n thus - sad! All our dreams to hit the city roads while enjoying the 4 years of college life at Hyderabad came crashing down. All because I wanted a BRIGHT career. Its always been ME... everything between us is for me. So deep is the understanding between us. We spent quality time with each other whenever I came home for short spells. We went everywhere... shopping, movies, restaurants... there is probably no place in Hyd where both of us did not go together!

Coming to recent events... after I came back to Hyd last December..... my happiness knew no bounds. At last I'm back once and for all. But again the damn PS. Wipro timings were sooo damn hectic and again we had to compromise... but yes...we surely saw each other atleast once everyday! Pokiri was the last movie we went together lately and it rained heavily when we were returning. It was a lovely experience. We didn't stop... we were going at around 60 kmph even in that rain! it was wowwwwwwwwww... n the other day... (shux... how cud I forget this one!) the traffic police caught us. He was about to blast us about not wearing helmet. I acted just in time n told tht guy about a hypothetical interview at Intelligroup n that we were getting late n all that crap n thatz when he let us go! thank gawd!

Hmmmm... I heard many people say that first love hurts more than healing but for me it has been a totally different feeling. I always made sure that both of us went out whenever I had mood swings or whenever I felt gussed or angry with someone. It brings me such relief and peace of mind! Itz always been the same ecstatic, delightful n jolly ride! Love u loads n loads for being there! Tvs Scooty ~ My first love!

Goal! ;)

LyRiCs...

Here goes... some of THE lines which make me love the song...

• Frozen inside without your touch Without your love, darling...
  Only you are the life among the dead .....................

Bid my blood to run... before I come undone...
save me from the nothing I've become...

• From the subway to my home
  endless ringing of my phone
  when u're feelin all alone...
  All u gotta do is jus call me... call me...

• I hear your voice on the line... but it doesn't stop the pain...
  If I see you next to never... how can we say together...
  Wherever u go... whatever u do... I will be right here waiting for u...
  whatever it takes or how my heart breaks... I will be right here waiting for u...

• Standin' on ur mama's porch.. You told me it would last forever...
  Oh the way you held my hand... I knew that it was now or never
  Those were the best days of my life

Now these you'd not find anywhere on the internet I guess!

• u went forward using all ma frenz...
  I saw the world crashing all around ur face...
  never really knew when it was always getting there...
  i'll stop the world and melt with u...

• You are my strength when I am weak... You are the treasure that I seek...
  You are my all in all
  Seeking you as a precious jewel...Giving u up I'd be a fool...
  You are my all in all

• I want u more than gold n silver... onli u can satisfy
  I want u more than any other so much more than anything...

• won't u dance with me honey... won't u b my guy...
  we'll both live together side by side...

more to come... to be continued.........

~Rhapsody~

Bliss!

I've been in a happy mood lately. This statement is probably a rarity in my blog as I have been writing a lot about my sorrow and grief in the past. While it has never been my intention to do so, these were the emotions that are reflected upon on my writings... like you gyz have read here. I was in the rut for a period that is probably too far to remember now. The darker side of my emotions had 'swallowed' me into oblivion and I can't exactly call it 'depression' but it was something close. I tend to gloom over my past and view things negatively. But after a prolonged period of indulging myself in a pathetic and miserable state...((that too unnecessarily)), I started to realise that I was wasting my time away by being down. I mean, why must I drown myself in the sea of sadness? I should live my life to the fullest and be happy. This is where the turning point begins. I started to come to terms with my life. I began to accept the things that had happened to me and try not to put too much blame on myself.... now com'on.... nothing was so tragic afterall.

Come to think about it, it is really peculiar how we always tend to take an unnecessarily longer route to find a solution to our problem. We tend to beat around the bushes or drive around a HUGE roundabout over and over again without any proper direction to head towards. And all of a sudden, you start to realise that everything is wrong. I woke up one morning and asked myself "What have I been doing?" I started to realise that I have two choices when I open my eyes to face the day. Either I want to be happy or sad. It was truly a simple revelation; one that has taken me a long time to realise... that being happy is actually a choice; YOUR choice. Why let our emotions govern our life?!? Instead, it sounds lot better for us to control our emotions so that we can take control of our lives.

I guess one of the important lesson in life is not to put too high expectation on anything. That way, we get to avoid any disapppointments that might set in later. As humans our desires are practically unlimited. We tend to wish for a better career, an ideal lover, a luxury car and a bigger house. We also want a perfect life, a happy family, financial freedom etc. When we fail to achieve those, we become discontented which in turn leads to frustration and ultimately disappointment. May be we feel useless, insignificant and worthless.

Appreciating what we have and making the best out of life is the moral. Life is more than chasing material objects. Life is about finding your true happiness. And I think I have found true happiness in a simple package... It is called 'Rhapsody'... a blissful state! Thanks to Andaman trip... I had a gud n well deserved break. Yessss.... I won... I broke the monotony :D

Pahh...I feel like myself now :)